One!
Dear Steph,
This post really should be up since a few weeks back. Well, no excuses, my fault.
My limited words probably won’t do this event justice. Looking back at the past two years, things changed so much. Normal outsiders probably won’t notice a difference, as I’m always perceived as being in control, or like a phrase I learnt in “Heroes” a few weeks back – someone with a “trajectory”. But I know better, and most importantly, you know better.
And with you “accidentally but purposefully” appearing in my life, everything changes. The changes are subtle, but nonetheless significant. Looking back, I barely recognize myself. Surely, signs of ages are appearing, not least my bulging waistlines – which according to my sis, is your fault too.
I knew not much about relationship, though I claimed and thought otherwise. Being with you is a never-ending route of learning. Each day, there’s something to learn, through our, according to your mom, talk-and-talk-and-never-finish talk. Through our fights and arguments, yes we do fight and get angry at one another don’t we? And that’s another lesson I learnt, that fights and arguments are not correlated to the health of the relationship, because the worst time in our relationship in when we choose not to talk about it. Through our laughters, oh yes, it’s my treasured comment from you when you said my jokes make you laugh. Through our struggles to make ourselves understood, whether to each other or to the world. We learn, and learn, and that’s exactly what I like. I’m a nerd, I admit it.
I knew nothing about my vision, besides wanting to be rich and famous. You saw through me. You told me about using my talents in teaching even while I was complaining that I can’t contribute to the Kingdom of God. No, for all I know, I might still fail to use the gifts that have been given to me. But I have a vision now, and you saw the whole process. You knew all the rantings when I was frustrated at how hard teaching and mentoring could be. And because of you, I’m having more resolves in reaching this goal. But not without you. No, not without you.
I knew nothing about table manners, nothing about the different baking techniques, cultures of England and and and….
Like you said, I never could imagine finding someone that actually “matched”. Maybe the broken relationships in this world had convinced me that I just should settled for second best, that compromises and tolerances are essential. And at first look, who would have guessed that we could actually “matched”? A giant and a dwarf, eh?
My heart says otherwise now.
You know, I could well say all this to you face to face. But I know you like words, that written words have a certain magic over you. I claim not to have known you completely, as that would have made me arrogant and our future boring. But I do claim to be the person who wants to know you the most and the deepest. I do claim to be the person who wants to make your dreams come thorough.
Thanks, and Happy ONE”st” Anniversary and Happy Birthday.
